Does there any meaning for blind relations........?

I dun know wat i m doing... n wat the hell i m doing with my life.... everything is not yet so clear... so much dilemma... confusion... why this is so.....? (please dun ask me... wat i really mean... n why i m confused... as i cant tell u that... ( coz' i have my small world inside me... which is always untouched by the outside world... n sud remain untouched only... for the sake of my Individuality...n thus i can never show this to anyone... no matters how close u r to me! but no encroachment plz..! n plz dun feel it :) as m a true Scorpion.. :) n if u r really my frend u must respect this characteristic of a scorpion.. lolz :P) however, i can tell u that m saying this as 'in general'.. not for any specific thing in life. ) many time i tried to be strong... but this thing does not works always... the mind is diverting ..... n i know this... still i m involving myself... as i am a student..so i have to study... n concentrate on it only.... but u knw.. mind is fickle.... No one but only i can rectify. I can rectify ..may be not very easily... but certainly i can!!... but this rectification process may break some hearts, may hurt some people around me..sud i do so????? or just keep on moving... as i am doing so... right now.... n finally hurting myself only.. at the last............ leaving everybody else happy... in their lives. no matters how much u denies to my last statement but ... people want (if not want.. then atleast 'll be happy by..) this only... i know.

Reflection: An idle mind...... ready to be lost in this world

Outer me: Sometime i feel very blank..
Inner me: (Devoid of thought??).
Outer me: ahh...! not exactly....
Inner me: So, what I feels??
Outer me: probably quite insane(!!!!) and helpless... unable to help myself.
Inner me: No, actually I feel very emotional sometimes. yes.. every silly thing troubles me a lot sometimes.
Outer me: Why have I suddenly become emotionally vulnerable?
Inner me: Maybe, I am feeling insecure.
Outer me: Insecure about what?
Inner me: i dun knw really...
Outer me: but is there anyone who is secured??! i think .. Not. probably I simply feels bored...
Inner me: why??
Outer me: may be right now having.. an idle mind ... is it???
Inner me: dun knw exactly.....Although in between all this.. I go for movies, eat-out, visit places, go for parties, crack jokes..., have fun wid frends.... But once these hungamas are over. I feel blank again.... Emotionless.
And I am sure many person in this world may feels the same.. All eyes must have some or other time ... the same vacant look.. although m not tired of life.. :) as i knw i have yet to step into the real world.. :)
to loose slowly myself in this CRAZY world....

Life is always not that much... EASY.

Today something happened... not of worth writing i knw... still m writing.... one of my frend got divorced..! m sad.... disappointed this thing sud not happened... n i dun knw... how years long relations dies... in a moment... especially even when u have a connecting link between you... ---- a KID!!!
however i knw that i dun have any right for commenting on one's personal life.... every person have its own point of view n life... n everybody have right to live its life in his/her manner.... n i truly Respect this right.....!!
still i dun knw.... how things goes wrong to such an extent....that u can't live wid a person anymore wid whom u have taken oath for living together n for 'do us part till death n beyond...' kinda things!.. but i can never take a divorce... no matter how he will be....! (really) it will be much more easier for me to die... then to take divorce!... i suppose :) still i know very well that my life partner will be the best... n definitely will be my LIFE! :) although i m not expecting too much from him... but i have 200% confidence on him.... :) (whoever he'll be! :) )

one thing i knw about myself is that... as far as adjustment is concerned, i can adjust with any damn buddy in this world...! (m not exaggerating) but... if you can leave me wid my own choice .... then my choice will be certainly the best in this world.... :) this is the reason... i suppose... that m still single.... :) lolz (as i m still searching that Mr. Perfect for me... :) lolz )
who is atleast difficult to find if not impossible.. :)
otherwise nothing 'll happen... this type of people will marry to a person... who is chosen by their parents... :) lolz... n they have started falling (rising actually ... :) ) in love with that person only.... :) --- AS in a typical Indian marriage... :)
Isn't!!??? :)

SOME OF THE BEST MOMENTS in the life..

SOME OF THE BEST MOMENTS in the life.. Lying in the bed listening to the rain outside; Thinking abt the person U LOVE THE MOST; Taking a long drive on CLaM ROaD; A sweet n emotional CONVERSATION; Finding money in ur old jeans just whn u NEEDED; Giggling nAUGHTILY; Holding hands with ur friend or love for a WALK; Getting a HUG from someone u care the most.. The MOMENTS ur eyes are filled with tears after a BIG LAUGH..
wish u all these moments..

Friends do not remain friend anymore... when they start judging you for everything u do & shared with them at any weak point of time with a blind trust. They do everything to change u, & then change themselves, putting all blame on u... Even then they don’t have any guilt for anything they have done in their lives for changing other’s view about the life.

Why u r thr...??

Today m not feeling good... n i dun knw why... feeling so blue.. so lonely.. n so.. (...no words!)
why sometimes in our life people become so important to us... so that they consider u as granted.i need not to ask this ques... as i knw the ans... this happens probably when we r getting so much into ones life.... i know people need space in their life... but if it is so... then why they involved initially.. so much with us.... dun they know anything...?? .....anything???
however, i know that all relations in life are not for lifetime...
There are three types of relations that we get in our life.....
first is when someone is in ur life for a REASON, ....it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.... ever in ur life.
They have come to assist u physically, emotionally or spiritually....
They may seem like a godsend and they are...
Then, after sometime without any wrongdoing on ur part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. (i knw u were thinking that for me... that one day this 'll be the fate of our relation...ANYWAYS... QUITE POSSIBLE no worries!) (no matters to wat extent this can be true...... but u dint like my theses words na..?? i knw ... anyways but i'll write as it is my blog! n today i am mood in of writing .... :) ) (so anyways continue..)..Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they make u to take a back step.... watever but ..
the prayer you sent up has been answered.... and finally after doin everything they left!


Similarly, some people come into ur life for a SEASON, it is a time to... share... grow... and learn...
They bring u an experience of peace or make u laugh. They may teach u something.. u have never done. They usually give u an unbelievable amount of joy.... :) Believe it, as it is real ! ...... but unfortunately only for a season.! (does it resembles to ours!!???)


The third one is.. a LIFETIME relationship... which teaches u lifetime lessons..., the things that u must have... for a solid emotional foundation. ur job is to accept the lesson... love the person(wid respect) and put whatever u have learned in this relation to all other relationships.... and areas of ur life.. (here i must say... love is blind..!! Why!??) (and frendship closes its eyes! :) )

I have one Ques. for you....*Why u had come to my life?? for A REASON, for A SEASON, or for LIFETIME...(least probable .. i suppose! :) )
*u need not to ans ... however... :) (As i dun wanna listen... )

Any ways .....Thank you (everybody) for being a part of my life, ......whether u were a reason, a season or a lifetime. (least probable........ u can be happy... as m also not thinking for that! really ).

(enough writing today.... ! time to publish now... wanna read more??? my exams are approaching. okk..! so rest after my exams :) ) n haan dun worry... m not that much insanely sentimental... as it seems from my blog writing... m as normal as any gal can be :)

Believe while others ..

--- By William Arthur Ward

Believe while others are doubting.
Plan while others are playing.
Study while others are sleeping.
Decide while others are delaying.
Prepare while others are daydreaming.
Begin while others are procrastinating.
Work while others are wishing.
Save while others are wasting.
Listen while others are talking.
Smile while others are frowning.
Commend while others are criticizing.
Persist while others are quitting.

The lonely u feel… the lonelier, world make u to feel…….

Jo rahte hai dil mein,
vo juda nahi hote,
kuchh ahsaas lafzo mein
bayan nahi hote,
ek hasrat hai unhe manane ki,
vo itne achhey hai ki
kabhi khafa nahi hote