College dayz.......! :)

My school days............

The most amazing n wonderful days of my life... i was ofcourse good at studies n also use to do... lots n lots of fun... of my school days i still remember the first day in my school - The K V :) when my dear... sis took me in the class n says an angel-cum- gal- Simmi that 'u two always be together...! have ur lunch together n blah blah... :) ' thats amazing i was such a obedient younger sister that i have obeyed this upto my 12th class... lolz :) hmmmm.... simmi was always a nice frend of mine.... still today also... whenever our talks starts it goes on and on.... u knw gals talks ;) r always like that... lolz kidding :)
One thing i must say that my sis had a keen eye... n she use to predict people very easily n very early... :) thus, she had chosen her for me...as MY FIRST FRIEND IN SCHOOL ..... :) (today i wanna say... that 'dear Sim .. i luv u!! n m really eagerly waiting for ur wedding :) as i dun wanna miss a single chance to dance'.... :P lolz :) as u knw after coming to IIIT this was a thing which i wanna learn.... n finally had learned :) (along wid many other thing ofcourse :P ) It is never so... that we (me n simmi) never fought or there were no arguments between us... it was there...ofcourse! (as every frends have... :)) i still remember once i was a bit angry wid her.... on some issue (now... i can assign that issue as a non-serious one... :) but that time it was seems like v. important one... :) lolz...... It happens when u r a kid! hope u agreed :) ) n how she fixed it again... :) by making me remember all the things n times we had shared n ofcourse the first day of our school :) wen di... introduced me wid her.... :)
she is a always cute comedian n super frend :) i still remeber the days we spended together the days wid REIKI.... :) , that beating Amith by simmi... in library after falling from chair.... lolz :), n the day with a small kids in playing in the playground... n one of them saying to simmi ---- "didi...!!! so rahi hain kya???" :) ofcourse she was a 'samosa' freak too... ha ha ha :) lolz
Its all amazing ....... :) splendid dayz! :)

....................really, Those days, those times, those minutes are carved deep as a memory that i'll treasure forever..& will cherish every second of my life..

The One...

the one who (can) dare to care,
to understand,
to share,
to be always there.
to be mostly fair..
must be somewhere....... :)
i m here ..
u are where?? :)

Life is a book... i use to open it.. till it hurts... then i again girdle myself into the shell.. to comeout once again.. yes! M a phoenix.

Does there any meaning for blind relations........?

I dun know wat i m doing... n wat the hell i m doing with my life.... everything is not yet so clear... so much dilemma... confusion... why this is so.....? (please dun ask me... wat i really mean... n why i m confused... as i cant tell u that... ( coz' i have my small world inside me... which is always untouched by the outside world... n sud remain untouched only... for the sake of my Individuality...n thus i can never show this to anyone... no matters how close u r to me! but no encroachment plz..! n plz dun feel it :) as m a true Scorpion.. :) n if u r really my frend u must respect this characteristic of a scorpion.. lolz :P) however, i can tell u that m saying this as 'in general'.. not for any specific thing in life. ) many time i tried to be strong... but this thing does not works always... the mind is diverting ..... n i know this... still i m involving myself... as i am a student..so i have to study... n concentrate on it only.... but u knw.. mind is fickle.... No one but only i can rectify. I can rectify ..may be not very easily... but certainly i can!!... but this rectification process may break some hearts, may hurt some people around me..sud i do so????? or just keep on moving... as i am doing so... right now.... n finally hurting myself only.. at the last............ leaving everybody else happy... in their lives. no matters how much u denies to my last statement but ... people want (if not want.. then atleast 'll be happy by..) this only... i know.

Reflection: An idle mind...... ready to be lost in this world

Outer me: Sometime i feel very blank..
Inner me: (Devoid of thought??).
Outer me: ahh...! not exactly....
Inner me: So, what I feels??
Outer me: probably quite insane(!!!!) and helpless... unable to help myself.
Inner me: No, actually I feel very emotional sometimes. yes.. every silly thing troubles me a lot sometimes.
Outer me: Why have I suddenly become emotionally vulnerable?
Inner me: Maybe, I am feeling insecure.
Outer me: Insecure about what?
Inner me: i dun knw really...
Outer me: but is there anyone who is secured??! i think .. Not. probably I simply feels bored...
Inner me: why??
Outer me: may be right now having.. an idle mind ... is it???
Inner me: dun knw exactly.....Although in between all this.. I go for movies, eat-out, visit places, go for parties, crack jokes..., have fun wid frends.... But once these hungamas are over. I feel blank again.... Emotionless.
And I am sure many person in this world may feels the same.. All eyes must have some or other time ... the same vacant look.. although m not tired of life.. :) as i knw i have yet to step into the real world.. :)
to loose slowly myself in this CRAZY world....